Such a lovely story:
Eventually, Miss Parsons tells us about her departmentās annual production. Itās called Oakfieldās Got Talent, and she wonders whether James might perform? When I ask him, I get a fervent yes; to reduce the chances of anything unexpected happening, she agrees to the suggestion that I should accompany him on an acoustic guitar.
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I reach for a piece of paper that is serving as a cue card, and James reads it out: āThis next song was originally by the Velvet Underground, and itās calledā ā he then slows down ā āIām. Waiting. For. The. Man.ā
When we play it, James sounds like Mark E Smith from the Fall, barking out the words, and rising to the conclusion of each verse ā āOh, Iām waiting for mah manā ā with a loud sense of triumph. A few times, he drifts away from the microphone, and yells the words into the air. We have worked out a procedure for this: I say āMicrophone! Microphone!ā out of the side of my mouth, and he returns to the right spot.
I donāt know if many of the audience quite understand what they are listening to: a less-than-wholesome song about copping dope in 1960s Manhattan, the grimness of withdrawal, and the rapturous pleasure of yet another hit of heroin. But they like it: we get a second round of applause, and I do that showbiz thing of camply extending my arm in Jamesās direction. There are a few whoops, and he picks his way down the wooden stairs to the right of us, before taking a seat in the audience.
Ginny and Rosa are there. To us, the meaning of the six minutes James and I have just spent on the stage is pretty obvious. If you are repeatedly told what your child canāt do, it starts to eat at you. Certain words hover over you: āsevereā, āprofoundā, āimpairmentā. You miss superlatives; whatever successes your child achieves, they donāt tend to feel like the same ones other kids experience. But here is something James can do ā brilliantly, fantastically, wonderfully ā on the same terms as everyone else. Better still, he loves doing it, and it makes him the centre of attention.
It is a gorgeous summer evening, and everything feels as if it is surrounded by a lovely glow. When we get home, James does not sleep, but I do not mind at all. āI want to do that again,ā he says. āI want to do that again!ā