This isn't earth-shatteringly important. Just kind of sweet.
I had become resigned to living the rest of my life as if it belonged to someone I emailed with a few times but never actually met, but then came an unexpected 12-month span that turned everything around. My son had graduated from college and my daughter had just started, so they had clearly moved on with their lives. I discovered home movies of my biological dad, who had died before I was born so Iād never seen anything but some photos of him. I turned 60. And there was a pandemic, which brought with it endless hours of isolation and contemplation.
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Once youāre past 60, your internal āfuck counterā hits zero, so I have none left to give. I donāt have time to waste worrying about what others think of me. I only have time to let others see that itās never too late to be who youāve always wanted to be.
Itās taken so long for me to find my path, but now that I have, walking along it appears to suit me. Recently, I had drinks with some friends I hadnāt seen for a while. After a couple of minutes, one of them stared at me, waving her hands in my direction, and said, āThis just feels right.ā That was a phrase I honestly never thought Iād hear.